We don’t go any further, don’t fall madly in love again, or it just isn’t meant to be you…I hope it’s you.
You will no matter what, remain the love of my life, in the romantic arena. And oh how deeply I have loved and continue to love you. You are, dare I say; sacred.
However, in the event Universe has other plans for the boo of my life. I am open to that kind of intense, genuine, incredible, deep, passionate and, breathtaking love, we have known.
But holy mother of everything! I haven’t been sick like this in ages. I’m drinking tea, because the thought of coffee with milk, makes me want to hurl. For a Seattle girl to not want her coffee…well, that’s sick!
Since my bucket list is getting shorter, and I have been aware that I must expand it, I am having visions of my intent. THIS, may take some time to come to be, but if I don’t put it out there, it doesn’t know I want to create.
I like to use pictures with my posts, so I want to explain something about the picture I am going to use:
I’m not sure anyone will recognize this for what it is, unless you’re Deaf or have the smallest understanding of Deaf Culture. I try not to flash this too often, because I am not Deaf, and I don’t believe in stealing culture. I also have a small understanding of Deaf Culture and for me, this says it in a way I don’t know how to express with my words.
There is a lot of innocent, pure, unconditional love shown in this image. In my mind and heart, this intention is specific as well as “set”.
My life has never really had intent to it. I’ve always intended to just survive, and that is about all I have done.
There has come a point though, where I understand, I have been living the intent I was placing out there. When you don’t expect much, you don’t usually get more than you ask for.
When you accept, within yourself, that you don’t really deserve much, that is what you’ll get. I am so glad I have seen this. I have been very blessed this last year. I had the worst things happen to me, and my worst fears have played out, yet from the wreckage of my life, I found support, friends, new family and that I have this amazing kick ass ability to continue to love.
I realized the other day that I have been living a life with intent for the last year. My intent was to manifest love. In doing so, I learned to love myself. I have never done this before. I began to see others in me, and myself in others. I began to be willing to accept anything, as long as it is “rooted” in love. I believe love is a secret that most people don’t get.
The last thing I was looking for a year ago as I left a very bad “relationship”, was romantic love. I was looking for something bigger, then it happened. I had my awakening, my epiphany, my connection to the source was tapped, and I began living in love. I felt like I was falling in love with humanity, and Universe began truly teaching me…or is it that I truly began listening? Whatever is and was, has been beautiful and has swept me off my feet.
In the process though, I did find romantic love. He is now part of the love intent. I feel blessed to have found each other again. He reminded me that life wasn’t always full of trauma. He helped me find a part of me I had lost,or hidden, or wouldn’t let anyone get at. He doesn’t know it, because he didn’t know part of me was missing, but in talking to him again after 30 years, there I was.
Since I have been living my life with intent to it, manifestation happens. I am getting off on seeing it. Sometimes Universe really makes me work at it, errrr, sometimes it takes me a bit to get the message from Universe and learn my lesson, but there is a wink and a nod that was never present before.
Life with intent, is a good thing.